job hunt

My stay in Georgia reached its third month yesterday. I can’t tell if I’m excited or sad that the time is flying. It’s almost certainly both. I only wish a full time or even second part time job was easier to come by. Then I would feel so much freer to explore my new surroundings and really get connected to the area here. I don’t even want to splurge a little this month when I could very well profit by the end. My projected electricity bill is looking oh so good right now! …although I did get disgustingly hot last night and finally caved to air conditioning for a few hours. I also baked chicken for an hour. I’m worried more about my heating bill than electricity.

I think my subconscience manifested these fears along with other alcohol-induced feels into such an odd and almost lucid dream.

I dreamed I was at some little flea market (there was a flea market outside the theatre yesterday) and got a beautiful white sun hat (watched an episode of My Fair Wedding with an Alice in Wonderland theme and the bride wore a big woven hat). Then I went inside the building where they were set up and I was suddenly with my mom and grandmother. We spoke to an Asian woman inside and through that I finally snagged a job. It was with Panera Bread. (Start making connections to reality as you see them, folks. 😉 ) She grabbed another sun hat and put it on me for the bogo employee discount then set us to work in the dingy building cleaning around racks of clothing. The boyfriend was there, sort of like he had helped me get the job. He was joking around with me and I ended up tripping on one of the clothing racks. My new boss saw the commotion and looked unhappy. (I messed up a few times working day box and felt bad about it like I was trying to make the best decisions I could on the fly and they were turning out to be all the wrong ones.)

Then I think I had gone home and come back the next day because I had to get to the building again by traversing this steep hill of sharp rocky ledges. (That HAS to mean something!) Boss lady sent me to a room that was somehow familiar to me with its grossness. It was mostly white and was covered with black specks that turned out to be thousands of dead bugs everywhere! And she made me clean in there. I already felt bad about the joking around during work thing so I started cleaning. Then the sun suddenly came up and Boss lady was angry with me in a nearly passive aggressive way because I goofed around earlier so now she had to open the store with the room still littered with bugs. I was really afraid she was going to fire me and I was hoping she would give me another chance to prove I’m really a very good employee. (Oh hi there, nightmares and lingering resentment from Legal Seafoods!)

Then there was this hot and totally nonchalant, really cool and nice co-worker who showed me the co-ed bathroom/marble spa. That part of the dream turned out a lot less fun than I could have let it be if the dream were truly a lucid dream. Haha!

But anyway, it’s quite clear to me how my thoughts and feelings are being manifested in dream form. It’s cool to have vivid dreams I can recall. It just sucks that the dreams are induced by worry. Not so much worry like I’m not living happily right now–I am having the time of my life right now despite what more it could be if I had the full time job! But I want to go out and have fun and bring back awesome stories from the land of the Georgians. I want to buy gifts for people. I want hop in my car, fill up the gas tank, and go explore!

Otherwise, why am I here?

I’m surprised I’ve finally stopped crying after last night’s performance of Les Mis. Oh good. It’s safe to wear eyeliner again. I didn’t post yesterday’s menu here because my computer was being silly so it’s only posted on my Facebook. Now if I were some famous blogger, I might have a public Facebook page. Wouldn’t that be something! To summarize yesterday’s menu:

SNACK: LaraBar
BREAKFAST: A sausage link, pepperoni, 2 eggs scrambled, a stick of cheese
SNACK – Honey pistachios
LUNCH – Burger with pickles
SNACK – Frozen yogurt (more than I should have, I immediately noticed)

Yeah, lots of snacking. I want to blame it on that lovely time of month that’s rolling around. (You didn’t need to know that, I’m sure.) Before I start blaming that though, I also sadly consider the option that my old ways are so ingrained in my body that even when I rightfully treat myself, I’m on the edge of falling off the wagon all together. That’s a really sucky option to consider.

On to today’s tale.

Sprint day! After a little adventure to find a closer park, I found Hairston Park about 7 minutes away. Muuuuuuch closer than going all the way to Inman Park for a 3 minute sprint session. It’s smaller though. No big deal so long as there is room to run. Took a few tries to find a good place to run. I had to go back home to change into sneakers since the grass was wet in most places. Still managed to run into two mud puddles. Awesome. Stuck to the pavement after that. I sprinted at least four times so that’s two minutes of an all out run, passersby be damned!

After that I tried calling Comcast to lower my bill to the other promo offer I was given in May. It’d save me $50/mo. Nope. But I got free HBO for 6 months. So I fought off another bout of regret by going to WalMart, Kroger, and Pet Supermarket and asking if they were hiring. I figured it’d feel better than the anonymous online nonsense. Nope. They sent me to their websites to do more of the anonymous online nonsense. Still, I felt better somehow. I’m hopeful that Pet Supermarket might call back. The woman said the application pops up within minutes. Well she saw my face today and they’re not getting a lot more applications so maybe she can match a face to a name…I don’t know. I’m trying to ride this feeling for a while.

Not easy when afterwards there is nothing else you feel like doing that doesn’t involve a lot of energy use. I think it’s still been a productive day. Funny how I can be cheered up in an instant from a simple text message. 😛 8 DAYS!! We’re in single digits baby!

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