Since moving back to NJ, I have quickly lost track of a lot of things. My mornings have vanished as I wake up near 11am or noon. My belongings are spread out across two levels of my parents’ house. The flow of income I once had hasn’t yet rebooted. Projects I began are left unfinished. Books I was reading remain bookmarked. The kitchen is foreign and frightening to me. I’m feeling frustration at higher levels than usual.
I’ve been home for about three weeks now and only now am I starting to feel some semblance of familiarity in my own brain. My brain is switching back on and I’m starting to get things back on track. This would be easier, of course, if I had that flow of income back, but that’s neither here nor there.
My story documents are back open. My costume box is out of the car. I’m making a To Do list. I’m plotting devilishly wonderful things with my co-conspirator and I’m seeing my friends relatively regularly. I’m getting more comfortable in the kitchen that isn’t mine and I’m working on reviving the motivation to stay healthy. A recent bout of sickness ought to be enough to set me straight, but you’d be surprised how well my sugar addled brain can trick me.
Best news of all is that Play On Con is just a few short weeks away!! The only disappointment is that I won’t have costumes this year. Big let down for what I was hoping to bring to my cosplay/burlesque page. I definitely underestimated what moving back to NJ would entail so I’m left unprepared. Curses! But other great things are on the horizon for my cosplay/burlesque page! In the mean time, POC 8 IS NIGH!!
As a lifetime member, there will be more POCs to dazzle people with costumes. The boyfriend and I are geared up for some new gaming experiences and to have the vacation we both feel we deserve. Maxin’ (stats) and relaxin’! There will be updates. There will be new friends. There will be gaming. There will be goodness. There may be booze…oh let’s be real, there will be booze. I’m so ready for this!
Alright! I got all my word vomit in the proper disposal unit!
I snuck in another episode of the Walking Dead before work. Also killed the leftover Long John Silver’s crap. Yum…gross. It filled me up for a few hours, but I felt super icky. Time to get my butt in gear. You know why?
Well first I went to work. Day box all week baby! …actually I’m not totally sure how I feel about that. I’m going to be exhausted. I was a little unsteady in my head on the way there which made it a bit rough to begin with. The whole doubt thing. Also the very first thing I did was take a call for Manda and I botched that up. Ooops. Then I had a bunch of questions as I was taking phone calls and felt dumb. But suddenly, I don’t know where the change happened, but I felt very in control of things. Like I totally knew what I was doing. Woo! I found the post office, which is party of my daily chores. Turns out it was closed. Totally forgot it was a holiday today. But I got a nice walk out of it. And I found a neat little health food market and bought a couple of Lara Bars to snack on since my breakfast was terrible. I also had a great conversation with Marguerite about life and such. Free coaching from the lady who teaches the apprentices. I lover her.
And the best part of today?
Well I found out I get to take MARTA to work this week instead of driving. I’m really glad I didn’t just waste $23 on a week pass. Also, when I got home, I marinated some chicken using the Manuka honey! Oh man I’m so excited to sear and bake this chicken tomorrow! I skyped with my parents too. And then with the boyfriend. Yay! And even better this week?
…I GOT THE BOX OFFICE JOB AT THE CENTER FOR PUPPETRY ARTS! I HAVE A SECOND JOB!
I don’t think it should interfere with Horizon much either because she has me working day shifts! Woo! And I realize now even if she scheduled me for the other shift of 1-5 that she mentioned, I could still work evenings at Horizon! Yeeeah buddy! So in a few weeks I should know the gist of how much income I’ll have total to get me through May. I also have some decisions to make in a few weeks. Or start to make I should say.
POC IS JUNE 26-29, 2014!! YEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH BOOOOOOOOIIIIIIIIIII!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
- BREAKFAST: Long John Silver’s chicken and fish, french fries, a hush puppy
- SNACK: 2 Lara Bars
- DINNER: Beef sausage and roasted sweet potatoes
No wonder I’m bloated as hell! Yikes, girl! Get your mind right! Shopping time!
Uggh. I’m bloated. And it’s going to continue because I’m not going to throw away the rest of my dinner from Long John Silver’s. Because I was too lazy to cook. And I won’t exercise. I feel gross when I do awful things to my health. I’m beautiful. Health is beautiful. When the two combine, it’s epic. When they contradict each other…welp.
So this morning. The Walking Dead. Yup. That was my morning. But then I had to stop because I had an overload of walker goodness. I compared it to what Katherine Lashe and Sadie Hawkins said about including acts in burlesque shows that don’t involve stripping to pasties, “Sometimes you need a break from the tits.” So I got ready for work instead, and I took MARTA for the first time in like a month. Well since yesterday.
So the only reason things get hectic at will call is because it takes like three minutes for door sales and because all these discount codes and little additions like making orders donations instead of tickets drives me nuts! I think I have it and then suddenly I’m completely underwater. Still smiling, but absolutely drowning. And somehow it’s clearly my fault. Sorry I’m not knowledgeable on things I’ve never had to do before. So I was in a poopy sad mood after work and stayed an hour later than usual trying to fix the mess. I didn’t even give myself the extra hour on the timesheet, I felt that guilty.
But then I got good news that sort of perked up my mood. POC DATES ARE ANNOUNCED!! JUNE 26-29, 2014!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BE THERE OR YOU ARE A SAD SACK! I think I need to revisit my Halloween idea for POC. I want to go all out next year! Just for fun!
Got dinner at Long John Silver’s and regretted it when I looked in the mirror. I’m not happy with myself right now. But I knew I wasn’t going to cook and I didn’t want to feel like I was starving again. On hindsight I probably wouldn’t, but being on the tail end of my groceries makes me a little antsy. It’s especially so when I’m working every day this week and don’t have another full day to just cook everything I have. Starting my meal plan idea at the end of the month probably wasn’t so smart. Oh look. Another brilliant Brenna decision.
THE WALKING DEAD IS BACK TONIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And watching the Talking Dead afterwards put a lot of things into perspective so I liked the episode even more than I did at first. AAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! I NEED YOU SUNDAY! Mostly because you’ll indicate that I survived the upcoming week.
- LUNCH: Meatload, mashed sweet potatoes
- DINNER: Long John Silvers chicken (2 pcs) fish (1pc) fries and a hushpuppy
Needless to say I should’ve paid more attention to that little line of ants that made their way into my washroom. They became…a bigger line of ants. Thank goodness the pest control guy arrived…four hours later than the scheduled 8-10am. But he did arrive, he sprayed the ants, sprayed all over the apartment, and informed me he thinks he got the source that was outside by one of the AC units. Praise Dionysus. I am so friggin sick of insects and creatures with exoskeletons right now. Seriously. And of course it’s my job to make the ants’ mass grave…before the spiders sniff out a feast…bleeeeeuuuuuurrrrrrggggghhhhhhh!!!!
I took my mind off the grossness by working with my CAMCORDER!! WAAAAHHHH!! ::ahem:: Sorry. Very excited about the HD quality for TOTs. Unfortunately I don’t like how the videos came out so I’m shooting again tomorrow. Because that’s my prerogative. And it will be better. I only want the best I can give for my blog and alternative classroom. I’m very excited. And it’s not like I’ll be waiting on a call from the Hyundai dealership or anything. -__-; I’ll just call them when I finish the shoot and they can tell me they’re keeping my car for a second weekend and charging my dad a crap ton more money or something along those lines.
I picked up my check from Horizon (and completely forgot to grab my phone charger I left the night before), grabbed a quick dinner despite the flash flood that hit Atlanta, and then it was off to Game Night at Amber’s and Age’s house!! It was so fun! Played Tsuro and played Pandemic — simultaneously with the boyfriend playing back up in NJ. That was hilarious. We cured the same diseases with red being the last, but they lost and we won. In his defense, they used 5 Epidemic cards. We only had 4 Epidemic cards, which is like, weeny standard version and we got a very long stretch between the 2nd and 3rd. But we won!! Thank you, well timed “One Quiet Night” card! Then I watched some Cards Against Humanity. I thought it was almost over so I didn’t bother being dealt in, but it ended up much longer than I realized. That’s fine. I’ll play next time. And if I can retrieve my cards from my car, I can bring some games too…although I could’ve sworn I took them out. Oh well. I’ve misplaced them for now. They’re here somewhere.
I would give today an overall score of good. Despite a small slice of pie, I was really good on the food front too! I really need to remind myself that good ripe fruit is just as sweet and satisfying as a cookie or slice of pie. There was balled up fruit salad that was delicious! I’m excited to go to more Game Nights and to figure out what this Stone Soup is. I don’t know if it’s normal to become friends with your parents’ friends who have basically watched you grow up since you were like ten…but I’ve never really played by normal’s rules and I’ve got some pretty awesome people just around the corner.
Now I’m getting to the stuff in Atlanta that I came to see.
- LUNCH: Sausauges with mustard
- SNACK: LaraBar
- DINNER: Burger and fries from Steak N’ Shake (preeeeety pitiful burger all things considered. )
- SNACK: Fruit salad, slice of chocolate pecan pie
Play On Con was an incredible success! The whole vacation was the best week of my life! Not much time to write about my food and there was no internet at the 4H Center so I couldn’t tell you exactly what I ate. I can tell you this: I probably ate 65/35 Primal this week. Had waffles and pancakes a couple of times for breakfast, but lunch and dinner were almost always protein and veggies or fries. My parents’ awesome friends actually cooked for us. Mostly Primal acceptable. Yay! And I had eggs and meat with my waffles. Thanks Waffle House! And I experienced s’mores for the first time yesterday! …and the most epic version of s’mores…KRISPY KREME DONUT S’MORES!! Eat your heart out! …literally!
I dropped the boyfriend off at the airport this morning. It was the most miserable trip I’ve ever taken in my life. The moment the airport was in sight I couldn’t stop tearing. And when he got on the line for the security checkpoint? Forget about it! I was gone. Cried the entire ride back. Just before my stop, a woman behind me tapped me on the shoulder and asked if I was alright. She said, “Whatever it is, it’ll be okay.” Faith in humanity = restored. But I still feel like running into the middle of 285 or 78. I’m not even looking forward to work tomorrow. I had another pair of s’mores today in memory of our glorious vacation.
I spent today continuing my Walking Dead marathon because during my sad girl nap when I got back to the apartment I had a Walking Dead themed dream. That’s a great way to kill a few hours. I considered taking a walk afterwards, but the sky scared me away. Turned out to be a good thing. I ended up in a very interesting Skype chat with the boyfriend and Casey who I haven’t seen in over two months! T’was a very interesting Skype chat indeed. Games make me happy. And friends. Friends make me happy too.
- BREAKFAST: Slice of coconut crust meatloaf
- SNACK: White and milk chocolate tuttle
- SNACK: Two s’mores, chocolate squares
- LUNCH: BBQ ribs and french fries
- SNACK: Carrot Cake Cupcake
I couldn’t sleep past 6:30 so I started doing the last bits of dishes and laundry. Goodness there was more of that than I thought there would be. I guess that makes sense with dishes when there’s still meals to eat. Y’know what? Can’t blame an excited girl for not making sense. Did you see the first line of this post?
Last thing before leaving the house was to make up that pancoin batter. So worth finishing off the coconut flour. I really ought to find more though…curse you again, Whole Foods! Then after a forty-five minute MARTA trip and a fidgety half hour of looking for the correct baggage claim without knowing the flight number, THE BOYFRIEND ARRIVED!! So it’s a much more cozier Georgia stay. Happy vacation! POC IS IN TWO DAYS!! EVEN MORE SO MUCH JOY!
We went to Wendy’s for lunch, chilled around the apartment, bought some junk, chose Bruster’s ice cream over Vortex for dinner (a mighty fine choice) and he tried to get me to watch Big Bang Theory. I tried! I swear! But it looks like ending the night with more chilling is peeeeeeeeerfect.
…I’M SO EXCITED!!!!!!!
- BREAKFAST: 2 slices of meatloaf and 2 eggs scrambled.
- LUNCH: Wendy’s double burger and medium fries
- SNACK: A few of lemon brownies and carrot cake cupcakes, bruster’s ice cream (waffle cone)